Thursday, April 1, 2010

and now the spinning, thanks a lot you stupid reptile.

someone to face the day with, make it through all the rest with.  
maybe i've finally learnt to see love in all the things i hate.  but sometimes, all i want to do is run away

i have regretted it every single day. is that why i can't trust you?  
and i dont know how to let myself be happy.  i think my heart is about to break into a thousand tiny pieces.  
maybe i loved him all along. 
is that why i have tears running down my cheeks? 
because he has finally given his wasted heart to someone else?
but, the thing is, i honestly have no idea. 
maybe i dont have a heaven.  does anyone?

and today was one of those days, 
where you find the things that you love all over again. 
and i know i seem in a much better mood than the above paragraph
but the truth is, im not, im not happy, or joyful, or content. 
i just felt a shining ray of hope, a little like rain on a cloudy day. 
do you believe in magic?

i have 69 followers, how awkward. 


sanchez said...

twin. You make me feel like I'm not alone.

I know that feeling in the paragraph above.
I am experiencing those feelings.

I believe that somethings that shouldn't.

is that the same?

~Abby~ said...

I wish you felt happy and content! :(
Yes, I hope you reach 70 followers soon!

pearl. said...

lets cry and smile and dance all in one.
i think magic is out there, we just need to find it for ourselves.
Pearl xo

sabine cara said...

69 bby ;)

love isn't a crimeee

xx scarzz

JS. said...

love love love


Anonymous said...

Now, you have 70 followers. :)
I like your blog. A lot.


Erimentha said...

haha now you have 70. ohh and btw i love love love your new header, it suits your mood and style so much! PERFECT! your new pics are cool too, but find the background a bit too full on. sorry, just trying to be helpful cati!

apart from that, your blog ROCKS!