I've been struggling and struggling with myself.
About how to write about all of this, how to make you all understand. I'm trying in vain to stop myself from going overboard, and I've been typing and selecting and deleting for a while now. But I guess what it was, was this quote: 'Don't take yourself too seriously'. I think I've known for a while that I was getting a bit ridiculous, destroying myself from the inside out.I suddenly realised that I was like Rose in Titanic, standing in the middle of the room, screaming, and yet no one could hear me. And while that may be superficial, and that the people I have come to know through blogspot have honestly been so ridiculously amazing, inspiring, beautiful and a billion other really awesome adjectives, for a while, I just need to not feel so ridiculous, I need to feel warm and fuzzy, I need to smile when I think about Ron&Hermione in Harry Potter. This blog, this page, this chapter of my life, is never going to be deleted, it's part of me. And knowing me, I'll probably be back here in two weeks thinking its been a lifetime.
The freakin' amazing ass Sabine tagged all her followers for Cassies, and I like the idea of telling you all a little bit more about me before I say my goodbye. The task is: fill in 12 likes, 1 love and 8 hates like Cassie in her therapy video. Below, the bolded things are what you must include. Also, please make sure you link it back to me, to erimentha, and to three other blogs you admire. I tag all of you, its not because I'm being lazy, it's because I think you are all so incredible.
I like boys with some moral superiority and girls with opinions
I like hugs that make you feel warm and fuzzy
I like being a vegetarian
I like liking him
I like my hair when it's nice to me.
I like laughing at ridiculous movies, with my ridiculous friends.
I like inception, even though i haven't seen it yet
I like writing with no capitals, but writing without grammar annoys me
I like irony
I like tom felton
I like it when my dog nudges me
I like going out for lunch
I love harry freakin' potter
Today I was on an emotional roller coaster for no good reason.
In some ways, I love everything.
Its less, its less of a thing to like, its less distinct, its less particular
I like things that I like but I love everything
There’s more choice in like
Cos even the worst things have things you love in them
I don’t know what you mean about things I hate
I hate how i need to find reasons for my emotions
I hate how im pulling away from blogging for all the wrong reasons
I hate horrible people.
I hate sensitive teeth
I hate being less than the best.
I hate you but in a way, I can remember why we were friends.
I hate how I feel the need to take myself so seriously.
I hate denial.
I hate this, wow. . .sorry.
I sound like a self-aggrandizing idiot. If I use the phrase 'I guess this is goodbye', please, please, unfollow me immediately. Anyway, it's probably not goodbye, I have lousy self-control. This is actually, really, lamely, difficult to do. I can't make this into an amazing goodbye post, so, I guess it's just, I kind of love you all.