Monday, March 1, 2010

"worlds are colliding" - george costanza

winnie the pooh quotes never fail to make me smile. 

"if you live to be a hundred, i want to live to be a hundred minus one day so i never have to live without you"

what do you do after the moment when you realise that you have no idea what you're doing with life? you know today, when you walked over to me, i was wondering, what do i see in you? and then i realised, i see myself. my crazy, paranoid, bitchy, happy self. and i don't know whether to feel sad or happy about that. but it just made me realise.  why, why does  my heart continues to trust her. maybe, just maybe its because, shes just always going to be there. no matter how much we disagree. she is my anti-safe haven. and i love it. “Sometimes, if you stand on the bottom rail of a bridge and lean over to watch the river slipping slowly away beneath you, you will suddenly know everything there is to be known.”

im lost. 
i feel like i need everyone so much more than they need me. 

i used to think maybe you love me, now baby im sure
im walking on sunshine, woaahh, and don't it feel good

i like the feeling of dancing along the street to katrina & the waves. 
sorry, this is a bit of a muddled post. my brain and heart are all muddled too.
you guys must be awfully nice to stick with me through all of this. 
i promise, ill be back in reality soon, just give me a break, a leave of
absence if you will. ill be back, dont worry. i just need to get inspired 
by love once again.  and, its never about you, just so you know. 

all my old comments have disappeared. how do i get them back? :(


JSotiriou said...

dear, you are an awfully good writer. Hope you find the inspiration you need - and of course, love.


oh god, i feel like a different person everytime i read your posts :)

sanchez said...

Oh Catherine. I love your blog and you so much :(
"I feel like i need everyone so much more than they need me"

Thats exactly how I feel. All the time. And I'll feel really sad about something, but then I'll feel super happy. Because I'm running from sadness.

Its a complicated feeling.