Monday, December 28, 2009

epitome of emptiness.

And if the darkness is to keep us apart
And if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
And if your glass heart should crack
And for a second you turn back
Oh no, be strong

i find myself, wondering what i can do to wake myself up from the haze of materialism
it has become a part of me that i find repulsive in a way. 
i find myself trying to make others aware of the horrors
while i become part of the consumer generation
i feel like i should be doing so much more
and yet i feel like such an insignificant inflection on the world

and i get so caught up in it. 

i want to feel the pain
 of the truest love imaginable
i want to be needed. 
its love, its not santa claus 
sometimes it hits me at night, this is my life, and i can do whatever i want. 

what a whiney post :) sorry guys, i love you all
and i especially love my friend mary because she is
awesome, and she always understands me
even if we never tell each other everything
we are just plain awesome. and i hate her so much
that i love her lots. (ish)


omfg-vivian said...

your posts are always capturing me to the point where I wish it didn't end :)

I also hate my materialistic side sometimes. I feel abit annoyed at myself when I think: I just went shopping to buy clothes to wear next time im shopping. ah! xx

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