it has become a part of me that i find repulsive in a way.
i find myself trying to make others aware of the horrors
while i become part of the consumer generation
i feel like i should be doing so much more
and yet i feel like such an insignificant inflection on the world
and i get so caught up in it.
i want to feel the pain
of the truest love imaginable
i want to be needed.
its love, its not santa claus
sometimes it hits me at night, this is my life, and i can do whatever i want.
what a whiney post :) sorry guys, i love you all
and i especially love my friend mary because she is
awesome, and she always understands me
even if we never tell each other everything
we are just plain awesome. and i hate her so much
that i love her lots. (ish)